Blowing your crush off twice calls for an apology on your end, as this is the right and polite thing to do.
This being said, you really do need to figure out what your true feelings are.
Determine this before taking any further steps with this crush.
Do you truly like your crush?
You tell yourself that you do but, do you?
When was the last time you blew someone off that you were sincerely interested in?
That is because when there is genuine interest, you generally follow through.
Do you see yourself dating this crush on a serious level?
How many real conversations have you had with this crush?
Do you remember your conversations?
Do you actually visualize yourself dating them?
Do that for a second.
Visualize yourself dating them on a regular basis.
Is the image relatively hard to conjure up?
That is all you need to know.
This crush isn’t someone you are legitimately interested in.
When was the last time you thought about them independently?
In other words, they didn’t contact you first and take the initiative.
Come to think of it, when was the last time you took initiative with them?
Probably hard for you to remember because it hasn’t happened in a while.
In a situation like this, just get real.
Do both you and your crush a favor and politely let this one go.
Doing so is beneficial to the both of you, keeping you from leading your crush on, while you on the other hand, get to move on to someone you unequivocally like.
Moving on to someone that you veritably like is the best result for you and gives your crush an opportunity to focus attention on someone else who does like them, keeping you both from wasting each other’s time.
Wasting time isn’t beneficial to either one of you.
By wasting time, you are depriving yourself of someone that is a much better match for you and remaining in a confused state of mind.
After a while you convince yourself that your crush is indeed the person that you want to be with.
But like clockwork, doubt sets in and you blow your crush off crush again.
Due to your mixed signals, your crush develops feelings for you until they are unfortunately left heartbroken.
This is not the state of mind you want to put anyone in nor do you want to be that person who plays with the feelings of others.