Should I stop apologising?

[Harriet]

So I’m this teenager who is still figuring out how I’m feeling and so is my best friend. We fell for each other but one day I stopped liking him and started liking other boys. And the worst thing about it is that I told him about them but I didn’t know he still liked me. So I went on a date with his very good friend, but it didn’t work out so I kind of disliked his friend that I “dated”. A month later I fell in love with my best friend again, but I didn’t want to tell him because I knew that I had already broken his heart before and didn’t want to do that to him again. So a month later I still loved him, and we weren’t really talking anymore. So I asked him if he was mad at me and he said “yes” and then he started talking shit about me and saying what a bad friend I was. So that really broke my heart because all of his best friends were my best friends so now I have no friends in my class but I still have to sit in the same classroom with him all day, just wanting to go and talk to him but knowing that I couldn’t. So I’m still in love with him and he lookes at me, like he misses me but I don’t know if he actually does. I’ve apologised to him on every social media and he has shut me off and blocked me every time. But I still feel that he misses me and he looks at me like he does but I still don’t know if I should talk to him face to face because he might get mad. Should I carry on apologying or let time do it’s job?

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