You are welcome Aud.
Great decision on choosing not to reach out.
Difficult as it may be, you will come to discover that this was the most prudent way to go about this.
Working on yourself can often be challenging.
However, try not to fall into the temptation of rushing the process.
If you take the time necessary to do the work on yourself, not only will you increase the chances of meeting the right one eventually, but you will also dramatically improve the chances that the right one will stick around.